I wish It didn’t happen. I wish I that I never woke up that day. I wish that the roads had closed and that I hadn’t been able to be transported out of the city. I’m so stupid, why couldn’t I just stay in that abandoned apartment I call home. Beyond, that’s what he said..I couldn’t go beyond the city borders, or else. Oh why, oh why, oh why, didn’t I listen, if I had I wouldn’t be drowning in this sea of grief. I wish it didn’t happen. “I didn’t know anyone would get hurt!” I screamed at the cold desalate concrete walls that surround me. Regret. What’s done is done and I cant take it back.